Why I Let Him Break Me

Hi! Today’s post will highlight my confidence in the One whom I love. In life, we’ve all had moments of heartache. Be it from personal, professional or self by the things we desire. No matter the situation, the feeling of a crushed spirit is synonymous. Evident in times that I felt less, disappointed, rejected, and ashamed. And to be honest, waiting for time to pass doesn’t heal a broken heart. All it does is give a momentary pause from stressor in exchange with distractions. Then, I subjected myself again to more painful events. To things that can’t fulfill the longing of my soul. I searched wide and deep but never content. Until I let him break me to take his rightful place. He is the beauty of my heart. In Him is wisdom. The light that guards my path and heart against all heartache and evil.

Who is he? My Lord, the creator of all that is seen and unseen. The universe and all in it declares his glory. This includes you and I. I speak highly of his name because there is no one like my God. The name Jesus is on many lips as the greeting “hi”. But much more are unaware of his nature to love. I reckon we can’t know all of God. But, if we humbly submit ourselves to him his divinity is revealed. Through intimacy where he breaks away the lies we easily cling to. I pride in him to break my heart because he broke it to wholeness and sustains it. A journey of faith with moments of discomfort and uncertainty on my end. But he is faithful and never leaves me unattended because he delights in me. This is why I hope and rest in Christ my Savior.

Faith Heals

When I gave my heart to the things of the world, each time it left me broken. Shame, guilt, despair, loneliness, you name it, I felt it. Repeated lies in my mind saying I wasn’t good enough. I was born into religion so I believed in God. But, I didn’t know he was personally interested in me. I thought he was God on one end and me on the other. I failed to understand that Christ is life and without him we are nothing. Man was created to be in a relationship with his creator. Anything less is beneath the full intent of our existence. Having experienced being of and in the world, I write to proclaim the praise and glory of my God. The story of Jesus is not just an annual christmas story. Christ is the reality of life. Hence, faith in him reveals our true identity.

Hebrews 11:6, “But without faith it is impossible to please him; for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him“. It begins with believing in God and also in his Son Jesus. I relied on self for years only to have the space in my heart stolen by things of the world that was made for me not I for them. So, in faith I gave my heart to him. God requires nothing from us. Rather he takes pleasure in those who diligently seek him and trust in his unfailing love. As shown on the Cross when Jesus reconciled man to the Father. Opening up the gate to the inner sanctuary with him who is eternal. I tell you, God is beautiful and the depth of the love of Christ is unknown.

It is written, “He is a compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness”. Abounding in love that’s right! My walk with him speaks highly of his unfailing love. He is extremely kind, caring, and always tender towards me. If you knew my past you would agree that I do not deserve this love. Yet, he continues to love me ever so passionately. There is not a day in our relationship that is the same. Seriously, it’s a continuous burning flame that I myself cannot control. I’ve had all sorts of relationship with humans which comes with its struggles. Yet, not one day in my walk with Jesus have I felt hurt, less, inadequate, misled, unworthy, or whatever by him. He doesn’t need me, I need him! I am a recipient of his unlimited grace and mercy.

Break to Live Again

Psalm 147:3 says “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds”. Yes he does! The word of God is healing, proven time and time again in my life. There is no one I pride in to break my heart except Jesus. The process comes with moments of weakness but his strength manifests at those times. He takes, bless, breaks, and gives. It’s not a quick fix as some would want. Although there is nothing impossible for him. Besides, all my learned behaviors and patterns didn’t occur at once. So, why expect healing without a process. Moreover, he delights to build us up in his love. Which stands against the relentless troubles we face in this fallen world. And as we persevere, our character and hope in Christ Jesus is strengthen. Becoming like him in suffering, death, and resurrection (life).

I pride not in myself because I am nothing without him. He is the strength of my heart. A day in love with Jesus has given me so much more than the sum of my years in the dark. That my friends is victory. So, I proclaim my hope in Christ with no shame whatsoever. Don’t rely on the world to know of God. Because it gives false attributes and laws of God. Religion focuses so much on law and condemnation. But, the scriptures reminds us “For Christ is the end of the law for righteousness to everyone who believes” Romans 10:4. Only believe in your heart that Jesus is Lord and confess with your mouth and you will be saved. God is ever merciful and compassionate. He forgives and separates us from our iniquities and transgressions.

Which Jesus bore in his body for us so that we are justified by faith. Open up the Bible and let truth break you into a life of freedom. Free from the captivity and the desires of the flesh. To that of hope, joy, peace, and everlasting love. Yes, “The Lord disciplines the one he loves as a father the son he delights in” Proverbs 3:12. I am rightfully safe in His hands than of the world. His discipline is soft and tender keeping my feet safe. Plus, it always comes with a better reward. Evident by my life from the pit to beauty that is crowned with love and compassion. This love is for you! For anyone who believes. Allow him break you to wholeness.

The Light Within

There is no one that knows our inmost being but God. Why? Because we are made in his image and likeness. He feels, loves, desires, enjoys, just as much as we do. He knows our pain, suffering, and the struggles of life. Even when you can’t make sense of the “why” seek his face and he will enlighten your mind. Do not allow the enemy keep you trapped in the dark. Yes, we can’t see God. Same it is with love. But we profess love and are quick to give our hearts to things that don’t care much for it. God is love and he was made flesh in the person of Jesus. The light of mankind that shineth in the midst of darkness for all to see. And that light is our salvation.

I can’t speak for others, but I certainly know that he lives in me as I in him. The treasure of life is in the mystery of Christ. Following Jesus allows his light shine in our heart as we come into the knowledge of the One true God. I’m not one to find a good thing and keep to myself. Even when I was blind, I was quick to share anything of value to others. Now that I am a child of the light, i’m certainly not closing my lips. Jesus is the way. The best decision of life is to let him break you. His burden is literally light.

Oh I wish I can do more than write to you but I know the will of God will prevail. The Gospel of Jesus as written in the Bible is life and his word surely endures forever. He is the only one to break a heart to beauty. No one else or nothing else will do that for you. The choice is yours to focus on the world or turn to the One who heals. He loves and gives himself because that is his pure nature. So, whoever has ears let them hear. I pray for peace and joy of heart in all you do. And may the grace of God be upon your lives. Remain blessed 🙏🏾.